NEW YEAR, NEW LIFE, NEW HOPE

"Let go of the past, keep moving forward," as the saying goes.

Another year has come and I found myself looking back on where i have been while at the same time looking forward of the future.

Last year was quiet a sob story: a whole lot of tough experiences, heartfelt emotions but of course precious memories. I've been into a situation where i was lost on track, I got wounded in the fight and lost hope. I've shed so many tears. I got hurt. I fumbled and stumbled. I've fallen into pieces. It's like you can see sunset in my eyes. Yet here I am trying to fix my broken soul.

I never tried to question God why is this happening to me. Instead I asked Him not for a lighter load to carry but a stronger back enough to bear my toils in life.

But there were also pages in my history where God gave me such a wonderful creature who changed my whole life and inspired me to go on. There were also wonderful memories that I had the chance to really understand what life is and how awe-inspiring it is. Although there were those times that I bungled down but I managed to stand up and proved to myself and other people that I can do better things now and I won't settle for anything less than I deserve.

I've come to realize there's no such thing as permanent. That is why God created another year to give us hope to stand up again and make things right. He created another year to remind us that everything changes, this year might be different.

For me those were just experiences and memories that I know someday would fade away but would never disappear. It seems such a paradox to look backward and forward at once, but the significance of new year exist in that very contradiction. I've come to realize without your past, you have nothing on which to build your future. Without the future, your past would have no opportunity to come into full bloom.

I don't know what the future brings but I will take every opportunity that comes along my way with care and courage.